Sun, hiking, and specters.

I've found that posting blogs is more difficult than i thought it would be. My first one came easy, natural. Like it flowed from the sky into rain through my senses and into my fingers. But now I can't find that place. The mindset that made it so easy. That is what is hard to get. Not the words I need, but the state of mind. I'm not sure I have it now, but I'm going to push through anyway. So, this is my way of saying sorry for not posting sooner.

The last couple days I've had the strangest feeling. It's like I'm not really here, like I'm watching myself from outside myself. It's hard to describe, but I think that that is the best way to put it. I see myself greet my roommate with a smile, and answer his question, "I'm fine, how are you?" I study, but the subjects mean nothing. Just information that helps me move onward to learn more useless info. I need to surf, it's been too long. This ghost self is rather sarcastic. It doesn't say anything, but I can feel the sarcasm. It mocks the lie in my laugh. I'm not so much sad, just out of it. 

I'm sitting in the student union in a chair by the window. It feels right somehow to have the flow of people come in and out, past and through me. I feel see-through when I sit here, and it matches that weird feeling that I've had. It's uniting. 

Last weekend seems like a long time ago. But nonetheless, it was wonderful. Three day weekends are always fun, but they make me wish that they were longer. Saturday the rain finally let up! I had plans to go to Santa Barbara, but since I couldn't be sure of the weather, I canceled those in favor of a hike to point sur. In hindsight, that seems kinda strange. A hike isn't any better in the rain than hanging out in SB, but I didn't make that connection I guess. I'm glad I didn't though, I think we had allot more fun hiking than shopping. I'm not really the shopping type, but I'm not the picky type either. SB would have been fun too I'm sure. Anyway, back to the hike. It was nice that day. A little cold when the wind was blowing, but sunny and still nice. We started out on the path like good citizens, but soon ended up tramping across the open plain. There was this awesome tree that needed climbing, but that ended in a scrape. The tree got the better of me, and left it's mark. After that I ran away from a brief embarrassing moment, and continued on till the attack of the cows. Now, it wasn't quite an attack. In fact, the cows probly didn't really care about us at all. However someone was quite sure that they were mad and intending to attack us. Her proof? They were looking at us and mooing. Now, I'm not sure how many of you know much about cows, I know I don't, but I'm pretty sure that is what cows do. They moo. Anywho, to keep a short story from becoming long, we were discouraged by the thought of being trampled to death and turned back around after our advance was cut off by said mad cows. It turns out that the fear of cows and the battle with the tree had made us quite hungry. So, after we found our way back to my car, I drove to my favorite sushi restaurant, in Nipomo. Now, it seems completely ridiculous to me since it was one of the busiest days of the year for restaurants, but it was closed. But I did not let that defeat us, and promptly drove to my other favorite sushi place in pismo. After a delicious meal, we drove back to Nipomo to watch a movie. On a side note, the movie "Sybil" is very sad, even disturbing, and not romantic at all. And thus concluded a fun day...

Sunday morning I went with my sister to The Manse retirement home in SLO. A friend of mine had asked me if I would teach a lesson that morning. I wasn't too prepared, but I feel it went well despite myself. I taught on Love, and how that with this one action, or lifestyle even, you could fulfill the whole law of God. I went to Calvary Chapel SLO after that and then went home. 

Have you ever told a friend you were on your way to his house to hang out, and then spontaneously changed your plans and drove with another friend down to LA to visit her grandma without telling your other friend that you could come? Well, I wouldn't suggest it, it's not very nice, and I feel very bad about ditching my one friend. 

So, after church I was sitting around my house chatting on aim when I got a message from Amanda saying that I should come with her right now down to LA. And up I went. I threw a few things in my bag and took a 2 min shower and ran off to LA. I had a wonderful time. We mostly just watched movies and played pool, and despite the fact that most people would have been very bored, I was very happy. :) 

And thus ends a very nice weekend. You know, these good memories have brought me back to myself, at least for awhile. Sorry for the long blog, I'm still new at this. Hopefully sometime I can get back into the right mindset and write something more fun. Thanks for reading!